MY MOTHER. HUIB. ME.
Huib Schouten is my mother's partner.
For a long time, I saw him as a stepfather figure.
That makes everything that happened much harder to process.
This wasn't simply a disagreement with someone I worked with.
This involved someone who was part of my home life and someone I had trusted.
Over time, the relationship became extremely difficult.
From my perspective, conflicts at home became connected with my music, my releases and decisions surrounding VØIDZÆR.
I felt increasingly powerless over something that was supposed to be mine.
Eventually, the entire situation affected my relationship with my mother so badly that I pushed her out of my life.
That is one of the most painful parts of this entire story.
I never wanted things to end this way.
- FAMILY→
- TRUST→
- CONFLICT→
- DISTANCE
ABOUT MY MOTHER
The part that hurts the most is probably my relationship with my mother.
I never wanted to push my own mother out of my life.
But everything surrounding this situation became too much for me.
I felt unheard, hurt and completely overwhelmed.
Eventually I made the decision to distance myself.
I know people may not understand that decision.
They don't have to.
They weren't inside my life.
They didn't experience it from my side.
I did.
“I wish things had been different.”